Hard days. We all have them. Often, I think as mamas we don’t like to admit them. We don’t want to appear weak, overwhelmed, tired, done. We don’t want to hear, well you choose this, you wanted kids.
Yep, I did choose this. And I’d choose it over and over and over. But, let’s be ok with saying today was hard, this week has been hard, this season has been hard. It’s ok for things to be hard and still be good. Hard doesn’t mean I don’t want this. It doesn’t mean I’d choose something else. It just means we’re human, we have physical, mental, and emotional limits. It means we need some space to recharge so we can keep going.
How has it been hard? Let me count the ways.
Andrew is three weeks into his new job and is loving it, but it’s been a big transition. The schedule is very different than we’re used to, he’s driving 100 miles a day, and he’s tired when he comes home.
We’ve been sick for 1000 years. Ok, not really, but as a mama it feels like eternity when it slowly rolls through the entire family and then a new illness takes its place.
All the cars have broken down in the last week and there is now a pile of car parts in the garage waiting to be changed out.
And to top it off, our sweet 4 year old has been suffering chronic headaches for a couple months now. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t bring my kids to the doctor. But after exhausting all my knowledge and other’s knowledge and getting no results, we went to the doctor.
Turns out she has some severe food sensitivities to gluten and dairy, so let’s just add completely changing her diet to the mix.
She’s also going to have an MRI to rule out anything worse.
It’s just a lot.
I love being a mama, running our home, homeschooling, and homesteading. But it isn’t an easy path. It isn’t a glamorous life.
If you don’t have kids, just remember this image…
I was changing bed sheets, starting laundry, and mopping floors.
Doesn’t sound too abnormal for a mom?
It was 2am.
There is a song out right now called Worship Through It by Tasha Layton and, boy does it speak to my heart. Here’s the lyrics…
This looks impossible
But You’re the God of impossible
And I’ve seen your faithfulness all over my life
I need a miracle
And You’re the God of miracles
Some way, somehow You come through every time
I know my God can do it
So, I’m gonna worship through it
Before I see my breakthrough
I’m gonna choose to praise You
I will sing hallelujah to the one
Who can do what the world says can’t be done
I know my God can do it
So, I’m gonna worship through it
In the middle of my no way out
In the middle of my don’t know how
I hear You whisper to me peace be still
This is why I believe
You will deliver me
You always have and you always will
You always have and you always will
I won’t wait til the rocks cry out
I’m gonna praise You
I won’t wait till the walls come down
I’m gonna praise You
(Gonna) Lift my hands right here, right now
I’m gonna praise You
Oh God I praise You!
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Today, I choose to be thankful and worship the God of impossible. I choose to worship Him who brings me peace and miracles and deliverance. As a friend of mine always says, “God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.”
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